Wednesday, February 11, 2009

What I Am Learning

I woke up at 4AM this morning for no reason. I started thinking about things going on in my life and started to get anxious. Until about 5:30 this morning I had a full blown anxiety attack. It was so stupid. I was going over and over in my mind how I was going to pay the my bills. I was trying to figure out how much I have in my bank account and then I began to subtract all that I need to take care of. I was really freaking out because I didn't know if things would get taken care of. How could I take care of them. How could I come up with money?

Do you see that I kept saying I. It was all about my own ability, not once was I asking the Lord to provide for my needs and to guide my steps. I was trying to figure things out on my own.

It says in Phil 4:6-7..... Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Again the Lord is speaking to me about releasing control. When I try and figure things out on my own and try to take control, that is when I have anxiety attacks. When I put my complete trust in the Lord and do what the scripture says...by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving.....that is when I will feel God's peace! He will take control when I release it.

Don't ya just love it when God speaks!

~ Kim ~

1 comment:

Lindsay said...

Oh Kimber ... you are following Him with your whole heart & I'm so proud of you!! :)

Know that I'm sending you a big huge hug & some ♥ all the way across the state!!

Blessings ~ Linds